Wow readers it has been a long time since I have posted a blog post and I am sorry about that. For the most part I have either been out of town or I have been sick. Truth be told I am still not feeling well but I wanted to get a blog post in.
I have mixed feelings about last weekend. I went to Dallas for a Youth Leader Conference and can I say it was amazing. YSpalooza was so informative, so enlightening, so educational and can I just say it was downright fun but my mixed emotions come from the fact that I was sick maybe 75% of the time I was there. I hated that my friends and fellow Youth Leaders had to practically take care of me and for a person who does not like to show weakness, for a person who does not like to have to ask for help, for a person who just really needed this time to learn, enjoy and relax I had to be sick through most of it. I am grateful for these amazing woman who selflessly took care of me even when I felt terrible having to have them do so. The car ride over there was 12 hours long. Yes readers you read that right it was 12 hours long! Correction because of my getting sick I think I bumped the time up to about 13 hours having to ask them several times to pull over. Oh but even through it all the car ride was not all bad. I mean we got to really bond with each other after spending all that time in the car, after spending all that time in the hotel room together, after spending all that time together in the conference, the restaurants, heck its a miracle we still like each other instead of being sick of each other after 4 days. We learned so much as well in this conference. We learned how to better guide, instruct and lead our teens, we came back with enthusiasm and we even learned how to be better with our church, our teens and most of all our families. How to give ourselves time for our own families as well. We met other amazing Youth Leaders who became more like mentors in the process. This past weekend was great expect for dealing with the hormones that had me so sick most of the time.
One night during the trip to Dallas I got so sick I spent most of the night running to the restroom because the hormones had me so sick to my stomach that not even water I could hold in. I debated on even continuing to go back to bed each time because I was so tired after a bit but one thought kept running through my head: "What if my friends wake up in the morning and do not see me in my bed, then find me asleep on the bathroom floor they might think they have a friend who is a drug addict and instead of driving me to the conference they might drive me to a Rehab Center instead." The thought of my friends, my church friends, thinking I needed rehab kept giving me the strength to make it back to my bed each and every time I felt too weak to move. Oh my could you imagine the call that would of been made home if they thought I was a drug addict after finding me sprawled on the bathroom floor? "Ummm sorry Pastor but even though she came for a Youth Leader Conference we had to leave Evy behind in Dallas because we believe she might be addicted to crack and she is in a 90 day program." Oh the mortification! I stayed in bed that morning after talking with my friends and explaining to them my intense night of running back and forth from the bed to the bathroom and they were so understanding. They brought me a trash can in case I got sick again and brought me toast, 7 Up, yogurt and such and even placed the "Do Not Disturb" sign so I could finally get some rest. Oh they are so wonderful and I am blessed that I have the privilege to work alongside them in the church. I was better by noon and went to lunch with them (even if I could barely eat anything) and attended the last half of the conference that day even though after playing some of the games I got sick again and ran to the restroom one last time. I had called my doctor who told me to suspend taking the hormones and that she would adjust them for me when I returned to El Paso. Oh readers the joy I felt when she said that. I felt like I was a princess riding around on a purple unicorn spreading pixie dust throughout the land of "No Hormones!" Oh it was beautiful! Seriously readers if you ever have to be on hormones you will have my sympathies but if you ever get the opportunity to get off of hormones you will have congratulations. It feels great being off of them!! But there is one problem to getting off the hormones and that is that your cycle (if you still have them) comes back full force with a vengeance! It is like some baby momma trying to collect her child support from you and she beats you relentlessly until she gets her money! This is what I am facing now and I have to tell you it really, really kicks you where the God Lord split you! And do you know what the cure for this is ladies and gentlemen? Let me share with you: HORMONES! Triple the dosage on the first day, Double the dosage on the second day and back to Single dosages if it stops. If it doesn't repeat that pyramid again! Talk about being sick to your stomach!
Oh but if that is not enough readers try adding the flu to the mix! Ugh! Before I left for Dallas my wonderful kiddos and even my dogs all had the flu! I come back and what do I get readers? That's right, ding, ding, ding! The FLU!! 1 million points to all who answered correctly!! Oh man add triple dosage of hormones, add cramping, add body aches, coughing and now my wonderful Minnie Mouse on helium voice sounds like fog horn mixed with a hacking cough. Seriously readers my poor body feels like it has taken a beating and does not want to keep on ticking. I am just tired, I am worn down and I am just plain exhausted. I thought the worse would come with the surgery and afterwards but the worse seems now.
"He [Jesus] said to her, "Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering." Mark 5:34. I take comfort that even though right now I feel like I want to just be wrapped up in a blanket and cared for because I feel so weak I know God is doing that for me right now. He has healed me. Tomorrow we celebrate Easter. We celebrate when Jesus took all our sins, all our sickness, all our sorrows and left them on the cross and tomorrow I will celebrate not only that Jesus died for me, He had a full bodily Resurrection, He saved me and gave me eternal life but that He healed me. I know I am suffering now but my suffering is nothing compared to the suffering He underwent on that cross and I am thankful that He did it all for me. And He did it all for you too readers. Take heart and know that He will be there for you as He is there for me. Loving me, guiding me, caring for me.
Thank you for your continued prayers readers and as always
Be Blessed in HIM!
No comments:
Post a Comment